9 months post-op = Revision ?It won't be the first time, when I'm not really sure that where should I start.. Maybe there are too much thoughts running through my mind -a few of them over, and over and over again- . Everybody wants to be special, exceptional. One more time in my life just has arrived when I wish I wouldn't (at least not that way...). I would like to be nothing else, but a simple, normal and "boring" successful story after that ACL tear... If an ACL surgery went well and you work hard for Recovery, there's only a little chance that despite everything it won't be good enough. ... Well, it's maybe not a wonder that I didn't find anyone at 11pm to talk about the medical studies that I've just read. However it should've been obvious, I feel lonely, all alone with all my thoughts and feelings. "Can nobody hear me ? I've got a lot that's on my mind..." -Imagine Dragons
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A few weeks ago I read an article and the comments below and eversince I am thinking about it...
Thoughts & Things, overall overview 5 months Post-OP, 6 months post-injury
Where do I even start ? Maybe with an appologize, that I've been disappearing -again- . I didn't think that it'll last that soo long, but I'm finally here again, just pushing pushing my keybord while the thougts tries to take control over my mind. Howsoever we look it, it's not productive -at least not in positive meaning- to suppress these feelings and thougths. This is why I ended up here as I used to. 6 months, a half year, 26 weeks, I could call it however I want, but I wouldn't change anything. This accident was soo long ago. What was and what the hardest part is ? 2 weeks post-opFirst things first , I'ma say all the words inside my head I hardly can believe that I'm already over my 40th Clexane.. It might seem that I counting the days by the taken clexanes, and do I ? Sometimes.. But mostly I just accidently realize that, "ooh, another pack is empty so it is already the x th one that I've got into my stomach" Kinda weird, I know..
I do try so hard every single day to have enough rest -as the doctors have told me- , even if the others couldn't agree with this statement. You maybe can't even imagine how hard, damn hard it is ! I'm lucky because I have my family around me and they are so helpful . But I would really like to be able to do the things by myself as before. The 1st day and 1st week after the surgeryOriginally written : 10th of June
I really wanted to write this article a bit earlier, but honestly I didn't feel -not even a little- the mood to do so. I had no reason, I just didn't have the "spirit" to write. But let's get started ! As you can see on the picture below, under the bandage there were 2 tubes coming out of my knee. Only the consciousness that they're coming out of me was so wierd. As I wrote before, I read a few posts about what should I expect after the operation. Luckily , even If had more than enough, I didn't had that so much pain -thanks for the painkillers I guess- that I was expecting. The most unexpected thing was maybe the sore throat and that dry, "scrapping-scratching" feeling and the cough. It's just simply the side effect of intubation. Good to know.. |
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