2 weeks post-opFirst things first , I'ma say all the words inside my head I hardly can believe that I'm already over my 40th Clexane.. It might seem that I counting the days by the taken clexanes, and do I ? Sometimes.. But mostly I just accidently realize that, "ooh, another pack is empty so it is already the x th one that I've got into my stomach" Kinda weird, I know.. I do try so hard every single day to have enough rest -as the doctors have told me- , even if the others couldn't agree with this statement. You maybe can't even imagine how hard, damn hard it is ! I'm lucky because I have my family around me and they are so helpful . But I would really like to be able to do the things by myself as before. I could say that I used to be independent formerly. Maybe this is a "lesson" that I should learn : I have to learn how to accept help. Recently I'm in need to help, but it didn't make easier to live with it. I have to evolve. I'm working on it. ![]() I've heard a quote that "Healing is not linear". I did understand it before, at least I thought I do. One thing when you're undestand a sentence and you try to imagine the feeling, and to experience it, well it's a totally another one. The 2. week after surgery is the one which made and makes me truly understand it. Monday was really special, because I had sort of a "milestone" : I was able to lift my left leg at the first time since the surgery. I was both happy and a bit sad (because I couldn't not to think about if I needed a week to "only" lift my leg, how long gonna take while I'll be able to walk again ?) . I have to remember that a week or a few days ago I couldn't do it and now I CAN. It's a long process, I have to be patient. "Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go, just remember how far you have come. Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome." ![]() After a few better days, after this kind of a "high" here it comes the "rock-bottom". It's maybe because I didn't having enough bed-rest as the others guess or it can have another reason, but I've started to feel less good myself. I had to take a painkiller again. Whatever I do, sitting,standing or lying with elevated leg, it doesn't really matter. Every single move is hurts a bit more than it did only 2 days ago and not to mention the constant headache, furthermore the "almost forgotten old mate", the nausea. ![]() And finally -at least for now- I'd like to share somewhat weird experience. I have no idea that others noticed it or not, but I did it yesterday evening. My left leg did not itch, not even a little. I'm not sure that since my accident, but I'm do sure that this was the first time after the surgery. It was really strange after -at least- 2 weeks without this feeling. Is it another step on the long road of recovery ? I hope so !
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AuthorNowadays, thanks to the internet everybody have access to nearly unlimited information.That's why I've decided at my 2 second week living with ACL injury that I'll start a blog to share my personal experiences, my days, my view, thoughts and feelings with all of you. It might be useful or even a little interesting as well. Categories
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