9 months post-op = Revision ?It won't be the first time, when I'm not really sure that where should I start.. Maybe there are too much thoughts running through my mind -a few of them over, and over and over again- . Everybody wants to be special, exceptional. One more time in my life just has arrived when I wish I wouldn't (at least not that way...). I would like to be nothing else, but a simple, normal and "boring" successful story after that ACL tear... If an ACL surgery went well and you work hard for Recovery, there's only a little chance that despite everything it won't be good enough. ... Well, it's maybe not a wonder that I didn't find anyone at 11pm to talk about the medical studies that I've just read. However it should've been obvious, I feel lonely, all alone with all my thoughts and feelings. "Can nobody hear me ? I've got a lot that's on my mind..." -Imagine Dragons I was told several times that everything is fine with my left knee. I still have my P3 bandage that I have to wear. I just can't believe that it's true. I can not believe that while others are already back to sport, it's should be normal that I stucked at this stage and I'm not able to live that active life that I used to. So last Thursday I've visited a specialist doctor, after all I had nothing to loose. " I scream at myself when there's nobody else to fight. He's thoroughness... He's thoroughness was something that I did not experienced leately. He kindly explained everything and our conversation has ended up at the main and finaly question: Should I have a 2nd surgery and if yes, why and when ? " I'm dancing with my demons As it turned out during the inquiry, I didn't get Patellar Tendon Graft (PTG) as I've been told, but more likely a Hamstring Graft (HG). Even if both of them are good, they aren't the same, not at all. I was prepaired myself from the beginning that I'll have PTG and not HG. It seems I wasn't that wrong when I had doubts after first seeing my scars (They dodn't look like the way they should). I'm going to have my 2nd surgery this Thursday, 22th of February. I would lie if I'd say I'm not worry. I also would lie if I'd say I'm not nervous or somehow excited.
But I also feel a bit relieved that someone finally understood and took seriously my problems and found a solution that might help. -That's all for now. Honestly I didn't sleep well during the last few days, I'm getting tired... Good Night !
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AuthorNowadays, thanks to the internet everybody have access to nearly unlimited information.That's why I've decided at my 2 second week living with ACL injury that I'll start a blog to share my personal experiences, my days, my view, thoughts and feelings with all of you. It might be useful or even a little interesting as well. Categories
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